Three

When Jason and I were dating, engaged and newly married we dreamt of our family and how it would look....and we always saw four children.  I grew up in a family of four and Jason knew he wanted a large family so it just made sense to us.  

We liked the number four, it was an even number and just made sense in our heads.

Between Caroline & Doster we lost a sweet baby at 12 weeks and mourned the loss of this precious child...a life we would never know here on earth 

but a child we look forward to holding and seeing in heaven.

A year later we had Doster and enjoyed knowing we were going to experience having a daughter and a son...and we felt pretty complete.  We weren't focused on having another child because, for some strange reason, we didn't know if we were supposed to have more.  

Were we going to have that large family we planned on?

It took a couple years until we knew that we wanted to add another flower to our patch and, after 6 months of trying, we became pregnant with our sweet Mary Anna.  All through that pregnancy we just 'knew' that we were complete.  Three just seemed right.  Where did those ideals of 'four' go?  

I've always just known that three was complete and perfect for our family and the Lord changed our hearts knowing His plan was best.  But as I was writing this post I realized that our ideal of four isn't that far off as we did have four pregnancies and we do have four children....we are just going to wait a bit longer to get to know that fourth sweet one.  

These THREE create the best little group for our family.  

We now love the number 3! :)