balance
I just got off the phone with my Mother and we were discussing my sweetest, Caroline. I am constantly thinking through our precious girl and how her unique personality is growing and changing.
In that sweet personality we also have much intensity and great needs...sound familiar to your own personality? Me too!
My goal and desire is to find a balance to help Caroline realize who she is and how precious she is without having to work for it, that she is funny and desirable in her own ways and that those ways don't have to be the same as Doster's or anyone else's. In my processing and thinking I see the two sides of "harping" and trying to help her realize too much and then stepping back and not being involved enough, thus, leaving her to wander on her own.
My goal is to find balance...to help gently guide her while she is truly discovering things on her own but still feeling the comfort of my guidance and knowing that her Mommy is in this with her.
In that, I have to be open to realizing that one way might not be the best way and that another might work much more effectively. In essence, be open to realizing I might be wrong at times and, on the other hand, feel confident in situations and not question myself so much but realize that the Lord has equipped me to make the decision I am making or take the action that I am taking.
Hmmmm, I have a feeling this is one of MANY nights that I will be up processing and trying to find that "right" answer when there probably isn't one....except to pray for my daughter. To pray for her sense of security, to pray for her ability to enjoy without having to work for it, and to pray for her Mommy to find the right balance in helping her grow and mature in this really difficult world.
In the end, I know truth. Truth is that Caroline is loved more than she could ever imagine by so many...but first, by her heavenly Father who, as hard as it is to imagine, has even more of an interest in her life than I do. As much as I process and try to think through the best route to take...in the end I know that my Father is guiding me in my actions as He knows my heart is open to His prompting.
Oh how I love this child...
In that sweet personality we also have much intensity and great needs...sound familiar to your own personality? Me too!
My goal and desire is to find a balance to help Caroline realize who she is and how precious she is without having to work for it, that she is funny and desirable in her own ways and that those ways don't have to be the same as Doster's or anyone else's. In my processing and thinking I see the two sides of "harping" and trying to help her realize too much and then stepping back and not being involved enough, thus, leaving her to wander on her own.
My goal is to find balance...to help gently guide her while she is truly discovering things on her own but still feeling the comfort of my guidance and knowing that her Mommy is in this with her.
In that, I have to be open to realizing that one way might not be the best way and that another might work much more effectively. In essence, be open to realizing I might be wrong at times and, on the other hand, feel confident in situations and not question myself so much but realize that the Lord has equipped me to make the decision I am making or take the action that I am taking.
Hmmmm, I have a feeling this is one of MANY nights that I will be up processing and trying to find that "right" answer when there probably isn't one....except to pray for my daughter. To pray for her sense of security, to pray for her ability to enjoy without having to work for it, and to pray for her Mommy to find the right balance in helping her grow and mature in this really difficult world.
In the end, I know truth. Truth is that Caroline is loved more than she could ever imagine by so many...but first, by her heavenly Father who, as hard as it is to imagine, has even more of an interest in her life than I do. As much as I process and try to think through the best route to take...in the end I know that my Father is guiding me in my actions as He knows my heart is open to His prompting.
Oh how I love this child...
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