update

As an update - in late August I shared our concerns about a lump I'd found and my constant achiness. Neither have been resolved but we've taken all precautions and done every test they can do at this time. I am still experiencing the achiness and the lipoma is still there. The lipoma could easily be nothing but the surgeon did say, on my second visit, that she could not say 100%. We've also been to a rheumatolgoist to check on the achiness and they say the same thing - they can't really do much to find out the cause until after I deliver.

So, I have a choice to make. I can be really frustrated, fearful, and confused about these symptoms until next April, or I can choose to trust the Lord, reminding myself we've done everything we can at this point.

I have decided to choose the latter.

The Lord knew and planned this little baby's conception and understood all the many details when we started this pregnancy. He knew I would face these symptoms and be confused and He knew that I would need to lean on Him, once again, to trust His timing and His plan. I could write a book about the lessons I've needed to learn in my life and title it His Plan. It seems like that is the theme of my struggles over and over.

So that is what I, and Jason, have chosen to do and will probably need to choose to do daily until we can resolve all our questions.

In that, I hope to empty out my concerns and fill up my mind with thoughts and plans for our new family of five!